Disappointment

Disappointment has been a big emotion of mine lately. About a month ago I made an offer on a house here in Humboldt County that was accepted, and I was starting to plan the next chapter of our lives as homeowners. After the inspections, I decided not to move forward, as there were some questionable conditions related to the foundation. I’ve been feeling pretty disappointed since. It felt exciting to be taking this next step in my life, to finally become a homeowner, to plant our roots deeper down, and invest in ourselves and our home. I spent weeks visualizing how it would look, how it would feel, and what our day to day would look like. But that dream didn’t come to fruition, and now things feel up in the air again. We’re not sure what’s next for us, and that feels unsettling - what will the next chapter of our life look like now?

I feel discouraged - will it ever happen for us? I have been looking at homes for sale over the past few years, and it’s very rare that I find one that I like, that’s within my budget, and doesn’t need a ton of work. I have mixed feelings about buying home, which I wrote about in my post on Housing Expenses. But the fact is that rents continues to increase, and buying a home will offer us more security and stability.

I have to remember that when one door closes, another one opens. And this door closing means it wasn’t meant for us. I know that more opportunities will come our way, but when you feel so ready for your dream to come to life and it doesn’t happen, it’s a big let down. My goal now is to continue to ask for guidance and blessings as we decide even more clearly what we want our next phase of life to look like.